"I can't explain it! It's all just a lot of little things and voices and feelings and it all just ended up hitting so hard and I just. I was having a bad day."
He throws up his hands, but lowers them down with a sigh, thunking his head back against the wall.
"It's like. I thought this place was freedom but it just feels like I'm trapped again. And then there's stupid Ford and his stupid theories. And people getting ditched again. And getting scared about getting ditched too and going like, I have to do something to be noticed around here so that I'm interesting and the Big Guy'll want to keep me around, but then there's nowhere to go once I am all graduated and pre-packaged to go and I wanna stay here but I also wanna be with my buddies and friends I've made here and the one time I don't want things to change, it's in the place that makes all the changes happen so goddamn fast."
Thunk. Thunk.
"I don't care about the stupid library. I didn't want you guys to leave me."
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He throws up his hands, but lowers them down with a sigh, thunking his head back against the wall.
"It's like. I thought this place was freedom but it just feels like I'm trapped again. And then there's stupid Ford and his stupid theories. And people getting ditched again. And getting scared about getting ditched too and going like, I have to do something to be noticed around here so that I'm interesting and the Big Guy'll want to keep me around, but then there's nowhere to go once I am all graduated and pre-packaged to go and I wanna stay here but I also wanna be with my buddies and friends I've made here and the one time I don't want things to change, it's in the place that makes all the changes happen so goddamn fast."
Thunk. Thunk.
"I don't care about the stupid library. I didn't want you guys to leave me."